A Fairy Tale for a Serious Story
The article below was originally published in North American XiAmen university alumnus magazine.
In September 1991, the days far away from home began in the 26-hour shaking on the green train. The mother saw off her Girl Qing was very sad. She wanted to accompany her daughter to campus, but when her daughter went to her cousin for the favor of buying train tickets for the sleeping cabin, she only asked for one ticket. In her eyes, being sent to school by her mother was the treatment of kindergarten students. “Pearl in the palm of parents” also seems to be a derogatory term. Because sometimes, the hands of parents are like the Five Finger Mountain of Buddha jailed the “Monkey King.” -WU Kong
The Girl Qing in this memory is me, a girl who never missed home. I still remember in the first Mid-Autumn Festival , in Xiamen University, under the big banyan tree in Sanjia Village, accompanying classmate Ye, watching her cry and miss home, I couldn’t help asking “How could she be like this?” Just at that moment did I suddenly realize that I never long for home!
But I clearly remember the indescribable touching feeling when I listened to Pan Meichen’s song “Want to Have a Home”. So I asked myself “How am I doing this?” Recalling about that moment now, when we found ourselves different from the others, that’s when we started to look for ourselves.
Unexpectedly, this search carried on and on till it cross the Pacific Ocean . At this moment, I live in a small place with a postcode of K0G1X0 (known as Kingdom of God, X connect 1/0). I, or my soul, can see the neurons , in my brain which I called my coconut, fire away to make connections, if I want to finish the task of writing, I have to settle down and think about how I should start talking about my days far away from my homeland . It has been almost 15 years since then.
The word “fifteen” has always been in the light beam of consciousness. At this moment, I see the light beams scanning and searching in time and space in my memory to look for those types of similar keywords , which is the clue to weave the stream of consciousness together with the theme never changed to unlock the gate to the heart of the world.
And in the jail made by consciousness in this world, there are many of my brothers and sisters, or even myself.
In fact, I know that all things being expressed by word are already relative, inside and outside the wall, it’s just our own decision.
I suddenly thought of “Luoshu”, the Chinese mystery map which carries Tao and I looked back, and it was the ten and five that were in the middle. It seems like talking to me from the beginning of time that if 吾（I: five+mouth )and Ten ( cross) get aligned , the gate will open.
In fact, I promised schoolmate Wu to try to write the article for the magazine for Xiamen University North American Alumni Association， only because she did carry many information coincidences which play a role in alignment with my own life theme by names.
Especially on the past Sunday, I was surprised to find that I and Rebecca were both born on the same birthday, and all the information I saw in her house was strangely coincidently aligned with my conversation with heaven and earth in the void. There are dragons and phoenixes, and in the past year I have actually totally met four people with the same birthday as mine. And she is the 4th. When she was walking with me, she talked about the fact that the cocoon was hollow at a certain point before turning to the butterfly, in order to encourage my spiritual pursuit, because at that moment all the body of worms turned into a cocoon of silk. Perhaps at this moment, I am doing what the baby silkworm is doing in the fairy tales I wrote, first cocooning herself, then making a new life form with wings , then breaking out of the cocoon? (Actually, it has been almost a year now, and after I submitted my composition to WU last time in the end 2019, this covid-19 virus has already made all mankind experience what is called a collective cocoon.)
A voice said, why are you still talking so much? In fact, the reason is that, I do foresee that if the collective consciousness of the East and the West does not return to the pursuit of the sacred goal beyond time and space, the ideal of unity of human being is almost impossible to achieve (today’s world has already been on the edge of war between western and eastern , or the classes divided by wealth) at the other hand, I do believe Chinese traditional saying, human was born kind , also belief that all people have the imprint of God in their innermost.
The Chinese say that “if there is no coincidence, then there is no book.” So who is the author of this book of coincidental life? I want to use storytelling to let people see the existence of the laws of consciousness itself is above individual consciousness. The story going with order of God is revealed to hope that human society will not go against the Tao of nature. as otherwise there will be accidents that make humans regret.
And the reason why I have the courage and confidence to speak is that I believe that Tao is the ultimate pursuit of a Chinese Noble soul , just as it was described by Confucius that “ to a noble people ( Jun Zi) , it is okay to die at night , if he can hear the Tao in morning.” In today’s world civilization, when spiritual civilization and material civilization are seriously out of balance, it requires true noble people and their confidence to return to the “Tao” expressed by traditional civilization. At this point in human history , this confidence only can be given by the truth itself , not by people.
With high education led by the mainstream of modern science, I am fully aware of how the mainstream people view the soul. However, the crisis of the mainstream of society today made me re-examine the importance of the universally recognized consciousness foundation for true knowledge. I hope that, as a Chinese under the guidance of the sacred soul of Jesus, The story of life looking for answer of the world unity would play the role as mirror to reflect the eternal theme of the cosmic consciousness.
To individuals, when people understand the original laws of this information world, the world’s attitude towards “Dao” and “commandments” can suddenly become clearer. To the whole, human civilization can learn from the empirical study of the trinity of Chinese Taiji civilization and Christian civilization, and from the height of empirical quantum science of consciousness to recognize the precepts preserved in the form of religions, so that these precepts are no longer regarded as shackles, indeed the efforts of wise men of different cultural backgrounds to love all beings. Although they were unable to express it and pass it without bias as those knowledge was handed down from the previous civilization and through many generations.
I hope that the overseas Chinese , who have been baptized by Western civilization can also accept the fact of imperfection of human nature and the reality of inertial eccentricity in their actions in the worldly engagement , in the process of re-exploring and recognizing history, meanwhile , they can also feel proud of being the descendants of Chinese for themselves. While the goodness of Chinese culture could be in practice. And we can regain the essence of traditional civilization with our brothers and sisters of all ethnicities in the world. In the process of realizing the land promised as our hometown, we also can help Western civilization to see the hope of the future-the heaven on earth in the Lord’s Prayer. And the word “wei” in the earthly branch means “sheep”.
Writing the above words intermittently, when I regained sleep this morning, I saw my old friend “singing grandpa” and Dr. Yang’s grandmother had a young appearance. In my dream, I didn’t see the goatee of my singing grandfather, and I was even worried that whether people would believe that the story I told about me pulling his goatee to make him sing is true. I woke up due to the worry in my dream, and suddenly thought that they (the two Buddhist disciples who belonged to the same era of my grandpa) might have returned to heaven. So They became young.
But which one is a dream? The “me”
wake or the “me” in dream ? Perhaps as the song always sings, this life is the dream of my soul. But no matter in my dream or outside the dream, I hope I m surrounded in the air / the spirit of truth, love and peace.
But this world is full of disputes. It seems that people don’t know that the root of all disputes is the fundamental cognition of consciousness, that is, the cognition of each individual about who I am ? This is why I worry about the land where I was born.
The status quo of mainstream consciousness in Chinese society today reminds me of my father who had a psychological meltdown when I was seven or eight years old. He opened his hands to embrace me, but I escaped. Before that moment he had been the best father in the world in my eyes. And I lived in the fairy tale world he created for me even though the whole chinese society is in scarcity . But at that moment of meltdown , his face became fierce and terrifying, which scared me. This is why when I was very young, I began to ask the adults in my family and neighbors bit by bit about the stories that happened in the Cultural Revolution that I didn’t know. And those stories, adults are never willing to take the initiative to tell. Later, my mother was amazed that I knew more stories than her. In fact, everyone should have the experience of treating scars. If you just cover it and don’t have it aired, it must be rotten. The psychological scars are the same. Therefore, I am really worried that scars which can be healed gently may be ignored and turn really deadly because Chinese people look upon too much about what the others think of them.
In fact, the incident related to the word “mental illness” incident when I was seven or eight years old, caused by the Cultural Revolution, left a mark on my young mind and became a vortex of inertia in my body, mind and soul. After leaving Xiamen, I went to Zhejiang University to go to postgraduate school of psychology . Not only attending classes, but also going to the medical school to study behavioral medicine, to those Germans teachers to study psychoanalysis, to the Hong Kong people to study cognitive therapy, and to the Americans to study relationship enhancement, play therapy healing, and empathy therapy so on. As a result, I have been on the path of soul searching. In the end, inspired by my autistic son, I found the source of consciousness shared by the spirit of our ancestors and the Father in the Bible. Finally I saw the world and myself thoroughly.
To sum up in one sentence, the days when I was far away from homeland were the days I found the freedom of body and mind and the soul. From a Buddhist, talking to Guanyin and always feeling blessed and protected by thy. to becoming a Christian because of the confusion of practicing selflessness in a foreign country, and then responding to the message in the soul because of covenant and curiosity. I have been spinning around in the stream of consciousness, and only one day when I saw that I originally existed in the information field carrying the order of yin Yang, I became optimistic on the future of human beings. As I saw the trinity facing The throne God sit.
In fact, everyone who I met carried their own message and mission. And all the friends who are contributing for me to know, regardless of my losses in the physical world, they are considered to be my angels in the process of finding me true knowledge of oneness.
For keeping the original intention, and using the heart of selflessness and unconditional love to walk on Canadian land which was totally new for me for nearly 14 years, I found all the information highlighted at the intersection of streams of consciousness: including, place names ,people name and birthdays even death day , in time and space, embody the model of the law of yin and yang. And Carl Jung’s synchronicity is just one cross section (and the 15th years is for confirmation of the model).
I suddenly thought that perhaps the reason why I was born as a human being is to use the life process to present evidence of the law of information of the unity of heaven, earth and human and events. I also want to take this opportunity to invite all like-minded friends to learn about the empirical story of “Dharma expressed by Yin and Yang”, and explore the possibility of social mechanisms which lead human unity in the heavenly future.
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